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Even though i know its my fault,
BUT ARGHH. its so unfair. hahaha. damn lah... LOL!!! NVM! i believe in karma! Nazreen by @ at | 2:30 PM |
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I am not gonna sigh anymore i believe. I am cultivating this habit. :):) I place my trust in Allah, whatever happens, happens for a reason <3> Ameen No matter what i promise not to show any displeasure from now on. Whatever sorrow i have, i promise to stay strong and keep it within myself. I have yet to tell anyone what happened yesterday.
Nazreen by @ at | 10:54 PM |
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its my own fault. i will jus go with the flow. I always consult my parents for whatever decision i need to make. I told my mum about coach and training. of cous she said " dun go training everyday , its not good" hahaha, i kind of expected my mum's answer. She ask me to talk to my coach. I think i dun wanna do this anymore. no matter what, i wanna be a apart of them. Nazreen by @ at | 10:43 PM |
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i dun find a need to state the reason why Nazreen by @ at | 2:32 AM |
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Nazreen by @ at | 1:35 AM |
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i dun wish to blog about something i that i was pretty upset about, something that made me cry real bad earlier in the day. I was a type of person who never liked make-up, blusher, mascara eyeshadow. you name it. never likes dressing up never left house without a pair of jeans and teeshirt. Thats why god made one of the prettiest soul around to be my bestfriend. no arguments in there. What i learnt is First Impression is the crucial in everybody's life. Throw away the comment that says" dun judge me, if you dunnoe me" for once it contradicts here. I never really cared about pimples overcrowding in my face because in Year 1, i never had to encounter pimples, excluding those who appear monthly and disappear as soon as they appear. But once i started training in the damn bloody hot sun, like everyday in year 2. pimple breakout! Omgod. i became more conscious of looks since then. BUT. i dint over do it lahhh. LET ME TELL YOU THE CONCLUSION LATER ALRIGHT. I am in chemical process technology. i have alot of path to choose once i graduate from poly with a dip. chemist, forensic scientist, drug dealing, perfume and cosmetic. But until now, i have no complete idea what i wanna be once i graduate, with a dip at least. but i know i like chemistry. However, i dun want to work inside 4 walls. i never could. My previous work experience all involved sales, customer friendly characteristic, for a fact. Today WE FINALLY MET and we went to changi airport, dine in popeyes walked around changi aiport. Aqilah was saying she wanna be air stewardess, she has requirements, so why not. they said that air stewardess must be pretty and tall. I reached home, i check out the academic requirements. I passed the academic requirements. i read on further and realise its not that easy. you have to try on the kebaya and they will pass only if you look like a "Singapore girl" in it. wow. I guess looks does play a big part. For the second time in my whole i feel like this is something i would like to do, and have to work really hard for. ( Dun ask about my first, its going down the drain now :( ) REALLY HARD. firstly i dun have looks. i have pimple outbreak. oh alhamdulilah, i already had my teeth done. wanna see the difference.  I CANT BELIEVE I LOOK SO FUGLY LAST TIME. btw fugly stands for fucking ugly, oh please dun get use to my crude language i am trying my best not to use them. No WONDER. No boy friend for 19 years :( teeth check, eyes check. No i am working on the pimples and fats area. and of cous my english. i cant do anything about my dark-coloured skin, its heredity i aint Micheal Jackson's decipher anyway. peace. I likes travelling, i just aint reach enough to get on plane once a year. The only time i took a plane was to Australia. I really hope to change myself. put my studies on a good use. and lessen my dad's burden in the future. I guess i have to stop being a spoilt brat which i have always been and started working on my own feet. yes be independent. Whenever i wake up in the morning, i see My breakfast varying everyday, my filled-to-the-brim waterbottle, my lunch money, some snacks. I cannot count myself to be more fortunate then this. I need to change. One more sad push that made me to this mindset was.. i really cant bring my mind to blog about this. its so embarrassing sad hurt. Everybody knows i love running. But i jus couldnt handle my ITP and training. i guess i wasnt so strong mentally during that period of time. and now this. What the hell can i improve with jus 2 days of training. i jus told myself not to stand around weeping. i am gonna prove to everyone, i aint a fucking weeper and i am not going to give up. this is the first thing i initially wanted to work hard for. I believe one day this would come true. I jus need to believe in myself more than i need people to believe in me. i really lack of selfesteem and confidence. i never had any of those. i was a pure coward. today i laughed as much as i cried. Thanks to them!! But aziya and her boyfriend couldnt make it! only if they it. it would been more than perfect. I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO UPLOAD THE PHOTO THAT WE ALL SMILED GENUINELY. OH WELL I NEVER HAD LUCK IN ANYTHING. forget it.
1) aqilah has been modelling for shoppaholicboutique.blogspot.com and also studiofrostfor suria artist Nurulaini. 2) shahril is an artist in suria channel inshyallah releasing his first album in december later this year. Onething i dun rememeber: being so openminded about myself before in any of my blogpost. this is my first time. tell me if your comments are goona be constructive and not destructive. If i tried to change for everybody else, i would have 1000 multiple personality and dun think i woud be able to bear it. i would die. but i dun want to die early i wanna repay my family for what they have done. YA ALLAH, PLEASE HELP ME. PEACE. Nazreen by @ at | 12:06 AM |
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Parents.
AINT THEY ABIT WIERD? When i thought about this in my adolescence age. They seems to be very weird. well, mine are. This year, I am nineteen. At eighteen, my friends were allowed to go OVERSEAS without parental guidance physically. At nineteen, i cant even move a toe, without my dad's permission. The previous times, when there were track and field BBQ, i had LIE to my parents that its a chalet to overnight with them. Do you see any difference between "BBQ, but after that we overnight" and " its a chalet" i guess you don't My parents do. So i never tried the " BBQ, but after that we overnight" truth till last week, HAH! i should have guessed. " Cannot overnight, jus BBQ and come" was the reply i was praying and hoping i wouldnt hear, but i did. So many BUTs in my life. I thought i would jus give this a miss. So I decided to go out with my babes and hunks( today is a saturday which means book-out") When i usually ask my mum " Go and ask you dad" So this time i decided to skip this step, i ask my dad rightaway " Go and ask you mum" zzzzzz!!! I jus followed his order, "mama, can i go out?" " go ask your dad" You know what, for the first time i made a decision. i jus text aqilah " green light darling" i guess i should change the title to My Parents. Nazreen by @ at | 10:24 AM |
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STOP EATING OILY FOOD AND FRIED FOODS AND CHOCOLATES!!! PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOUR DAMN FACE. its precious. nahh. i aint a bimbo jus a girl. A GIRL. Nazreen by @ at | 11:30 AM |
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Firstly Alhamdulilah( thank god) Aqilah and i got the same gems Etiquette. Victoria has also registered for the same gems. Its kinda embarrassing because even though i have struggled through my poly life all the way to my last year, ( there are only 3 years anyway) I completely have no idea how to register from gems module. I ask Weijian to help instead. thank you Weijian :)
Headlines BOY-CRAZY NAZREEN DECIDED TO TAME DOWN AFTER MINDBLOWING INCIDENTS. noooooo!!! waiit!! let me introduce my newest Crush. i know i am behind time. but i just got to watch boys over flowers. and yes the leader of the F4 gang,  heehee:):):)He got this charming look. which makes you go oo-oo-aa-aa Seriously. Seriously.... Okay Nazreen.... come back to reality. I dint go training for about 2 weeks. i jus got my own reasons lahhh.. By the way i signed a peaceful contract with ....... my mum.. The contract stated be yourself. concentrate on studies. you are a not a genius. running.. up to you to decide. boyfriends.. not now.. " but mum, i fall in love with a korean guy now, how ??" * shows sad face* spend more time with siblings.(grrrr) Come back home early. Dun be spendthrift Sometimes i wish, i dint sign this treaty. Oh well. its not a written treaty luhhh. its jus a promise. i need to keep. she wants me to make before the damn school reopen. 2 weeks TOO MANY THINGS HAPPENED. I cried like.... everyday? hahaha!! but in the promise i added to myself. Nazreen, no matter what happens, stand tall and smile:):) because when god closes one door, he opens another:) I shouldnt be late for classes i shouldnt skip classes i should do all the pieces of tutorial i should readup/ revise. I shouldnt be lazy I should read more storybooks. I shouldnt waste time( i wanna watch alot of korean dramas :( ) i jus realise, all my promises are the same everytime. zzzz ITP By the way. Finally we get the chance to enter the laboratory and do reactions. the end....NOT. we need to do report and a presentation. Alright. i have to doit. Pray for a good grade for ITP. I AM PEACEFUL NOW. VERY. TO THE MAX. i am going back training tomorrow because, i miss the red track, but i miss my trackers much more!! Nazreen by @ at | 12:00 AM |
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this time i promise. i would not let my damn fear stand in the way of my dreams. fairytales do not come true, dreams do (: i cant go back training with things so unsettled. :) everything is getting better and i seriously miss the red track and my dear trackers<3 Nazreen by @ at | 9:43 AM |
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Nazreen Hasan Singapore polytechnic year 2 ChemicalProcess-Industrialchem 19th on 2nd February. 2 is my number PURPLEREDGREEN:) Proud to be a REDDEVIL, MUFC I AINT YOUR AVERAGE KINDA GIRL. hook it up:)
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