Saturday, September 25, 2010

Sunday, September 05, 2010

EXAMS MOOD NOT HARI RAYA MOOD. is this good or bad?

2 tasks by monday night

i am totally into Hari Raya mood. I cant wait for friday:) i have been burnig midnight oil not to study but to help my mum to do the cookies. untill 5am, to eat and thats when i hit the sack.

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Today... september 9 2010 1.53am

Coward, I am.

Chemistry is definitely one of my favourite subject, after maths obviously.
I am burning midnight oil/kerosene/diesel whatever you want to to call, to revise Advance Organic Chemistry, the worst out of my 5 Core modules :( .
"Okay nazreen stop repeating this line everytime end of sem exams, only with different modules"

This time i definitely do not blame the teachers, Ms Ng Su Ling and Dr Soh Chai Hoon. Because they are definitely good teachers, they care about weak students( yes, yes. its me), despite the fact that they dun give me good grades. You teachers are the best!!
hopefully after reading this, they will push up my grades.

"Stop nightdreaming nazreen"
On a serious note, i always specially and especially study real hard with 100% for this module even for that test which contributes, 3% to the overall grade, but to no avail did my effort was retrieved with good results. Now i am afraid, what if the same situation rises.

like what aqilah always say " i dun want to seat for this teacher's lectures again"
In case you dun understand, it means she doesnt wants to repeat the module, which SP named it more respectedly as forward module, which basically means YOU DID DAMN BADLY FOR THIS MODULE THE PREVIOUS SEM, SO I AM GIVING A SECOND CHANCE FOR YOU TO DO YOU BEST AND ALSO SPENT AN ADDTIONAL 6 MONTHS IN SCHOOL. this is what it means.
Neither do i!!

For All my modules, even though i have 5 core modules, ive got 9 lectures, 4 which has 2 sets of notes with respective lecturers. how cool and simple. NOT. For industrial chemicals and processes, Dr cheng's notes is basically memorising and i did a perfect job:) But for Dr lim???? OMGOD he must be the most irritating lecturer on earth. i am sorry. But i seriously dun even find the need of going for his lecturers because i really dun understand what the hell is he talking about. As a typical Poly student, i go to his lesson for attendance. I aint a saint not to complain about lecturers alright. i am a teenager. well please allow me to address me as a teenager for the next 5 months because i wunt be a teen anymore.

Okay back to topic.

And how i conquer ICP Exam? I memorise Dr chengs notes which will give me approximately about 50% of the marks and i studied arrhenius equation another 10 marks. this is how i gambled ICP.

BUT FOR AOCHEM, How the hell to conquer which/whose part when both seems so disgusting and...and... see i cant even find words to describe it.

side track.. i always wonder why people say
1) if its a bad deed/ugly/anything related to being mean- i cant find words to describe
2) if its a good deed- There are too many words to describe.

back on track.. Right now i am memorising chapter 3-carboncarbon bond formation.

But i am sure i will not be able to do tomorrow's paper. i dunnoe why.
STUPID DUMB BRAIN. i am so stupid :(
well i am not totally stupid because i still got As and Bs for some modules. But i am completely stupid for AOCHEM.

Well, if i really decide to give up, why the hell am i up at 2 to study and sacrifice my beautiful and peaceful sleep. because i am not willing to give up. i will jus do my part.i will study. but there is a small part in me thats say "no point studying, you are gonna fail, ms ng will fail you, then they will pity you and give you a D-"

ya allah, please give me the strength to conquer this module.
alright people

on a happier note ,
Tomorrow is the last day of fasting!! actually i will miss fasting month. and and tomorrow is Hari raya night! CANT WAIT!!
We have got our clothes.
We baked cooking
We decorated the house
We have got alot of new things for the house, EVERYTHING NEW.
new this new that, new bedsheets, new paint.

Cant wait.

Bye everybody. All the best.

Friday, September 03, 2010

Twice again, i skipped training.

Life is unfair, it is so difficult to satisfy everyone at the same time,
if one can do that,he ought to be a genius:)

Its the last few days of fasting month and needless to say Hari raya is just days away.
The house needs some serious cleaning to do. My mum cant be the only soul doing all this right :( And my elder sister works her days away :( i dun want my mum to tire herself doing all this alone and i definitely want to help her before hari raya. Even though she gave live to 5 souls, 2 of which are normal human beings( My elder sister and me , duhhh, of course) and the other 3 are MONSTERS FROM ANOTHER UNIVERSE. serious, They dun even put back their plate in the sink after they finish their meal. can you imagine, Ive to keep shouting

" FOR GOD SAKE, take your plate to the kitchen NOW"
" huh.. wait, wait"
"I CANNOT WAIT, NOW MEANS NOW"
" aiyoh, i very tired" sigh..

LIKE WHAT THE HELL SPOILT MONSTERS I HAVE AS SIBLINGS.

The only odd one out among the 5 of us, is my brother and he is suffering from asthma every since he was born. and... he is for goooooodddd sake, 7 YEARS OLD when my mum says

" mohammad , use the inhaler"
" aiyo, mama, take for me, puff for me"
" cannot, i am very busy here, you do it yourself"
" you dun want to do for me, i dun want to do"

Argggggg!!!! SO SPOILT , Then i ask my mum

" was i this irritating when i was young?"
" you were worst, you never went anywhere without me. you dun allow me to go to the toilet"
laughs.
See what i meant, MONSTERS??its in the genes i guess. okay enough of humors, time for some seriousness, the purpose of me posting.

Besides the house-cleaning, my mum needs help to do hari raya cookies:)
sount tempting dunt they, but its not only the fragrance, the taste or how beautiful it looks, its about how my mum add the flour,egg, sugar,flavouring and mix everything and how we shape the dough by shape cutters. and putting it in over and keeping an eye on it, so that it doesnt comes out like the dough or like alitte burnt but just nice to eat :)
and it takes a few hours.

Hold it!!!

I have got exams:( 4 core modules, 3 of them 60% and the other one is 50% .
I wanna go all out. i got some polishing up to do. i need to study, memorise. i need time.

AND

i still want to go training. :( its just 2 hours on Monday Wednesday and Friday. feel so guilty for missing so many because of test/exams.

Maybe i lack of time management skills, but where is time to manage.
I promise myself i would not skip anymore training:(

and i dun want to disappoint myself. Life is full of sacrifices:(. I want it all. i dun want to sacrifice anything. because there is no meaning of give up in my dictionary. i jus need time to balance everything and get back life on track

this is so difficult to explain and understand. i only can do what i think is right.
i cant possibly abandon my mum with all the household chores and I need time to study and also, i wanna run. and i NEED TO SLEEP!!!! hello!! i am tired/ exhausted.

OMGOD, can you hear that?? it was super loud, i think my neighbours heard that too.
Dr Cheng's ICP notes just shouted my name. and i did something to motivate myself so that i would study instead of using my laptop.
isnt it AWESOME? hahaha.
The other time when i was in school studying with Raviin Kumar, i think he was seriously sick in his mind. He is ALWAYS SICK IN THE MIND anyway. We were guessing each others favourite colour. and he must be the first on earth not to guess it right! hahaha. He guess red and green and blue. Lousiest guesser. lol.

hahaha.
omgod heard that again??
i am just kidding.
adios.

Thursday, September 02, 2010

No One Can Judge Me,
Unless You got freaking huge ass problem with your own mental self.

You can do whatever you want,
can't you see, i am not even bothered to even entertain you.
i must be total complete idoit to even go up to you and say/CRY

"WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?"

Well for good sake, i am not a total complete idoit.
you can spread rumors or bitch about me.
i believe in retribution strongly, get what i mean?

I think you are too stupid to even know what is the meaning of one of the most simplest principle in life : retribution

i bet you dun even have money to pay for your internet bills, therefore you dun have mio/Starhub at home. so thats my worry, you cant read this :(

In case you manage to get internet from some cheapskate way, and you read this, let me tell you. retribution means.

1) if you are nice, life will shower you with blessing love and care.
2) if you are born to eff-you-see-kay up someone's life, life will EFF-YOU-SEE-KAY back.

TAKE THIS INTO HEART.

In case you are still reading, (sure got enough money to pay for the internet you are using, nowadays everything is getting more expensive, don't you want to save up for your lunch/dinner later?)

My life is already packed with superduber exciting stuffs like exams and trainings and my family. I am taking my expensive time to tell you that you are like a piece of rubbish that i cant wait to throw it away. :) get it?

are you furious? want to take revenge? do you need ideas?

After this is up to life and you :)

i need to study. adios.

Wednesday, September 01, 2010

AQUARIUS<3

Even though Aquarians are great with groups of people, it takes a bit when it comes to making close friends. Deeply sensitive and cautious, closeness means vulnerability to an Aquarius, and this is not something to be taken lightly. Aquarians' direct, no-nonsense approach in combination with their strong values can make it challenging to get to know the inner person. Yet those who are able to do so will discover a friendship that lasts through the years. An Aquarius will go the distance for a loved one to the point of self-sacrifice if necessary. They look for creativity, intellect, and honesty in their friends. When it comes to family, the expectations are no less. Although dedicated to a sense of duty to relatives, the Aquarius isn’t one for developing close bonds unless the same qualities they expect in their friendships are there.